Giving the upset a space

Pagi semalam.

Ayah : Ica, di tadika jangan nakal tau, jangan pukul teacher, jgn sepak kawan.
Arissa : Ok

Petangnya.

Arissa : Ayah. Hari ini Ica baik. Ica tak pukul teacher... Ica tak sepak kawan... Tapi, Ica tumbuk si xxxx tu sebab dia buat Ica dulu!

Ayah : ???

Funny little Arissa. She's been very responsive yet naughty and observant.
Really really observant.

Arissa : Ayah?!! (wandering around her dad who was being preoccupied with the computer)
Arissa : Ayah dah solat?

Ayah : ??? - err...sudah
Arissa : Ok

(if next time around)

Ayah : err...belum

Arissa : Sudah tu, pergi solat sekarang!
Ayah : ???

She's cute isn't she? Anak kita tentulah kata begitu.

I m on leave today. I had a hard time to sleep last night, thinking of and envying those who will be leaving for their HLP program and the course is just in 2 weeks' time. I slept and had a weird dream.

In that dream, I got the HLP in overseas (New Zealand or something) plus a boyfriend (shriek) who is a son to a royalty. The new boyfriend part is off course mengarut tahap pertama. Apa kejadah kan. But the HLP part was so overwhelming. New Zealand is one of the countries that I like to be, apart from Switzerland. The feeling was so nice. I did the packing and buying of some stuff, plus there's an engagement ceremony that will take place there (mengarut betul).

When I woke up for sahur this morning, I still upset. So after subuh prayer, I texted the Managing Bos that I was on EL for certain things to be done. After sending Arissa to school, me and husband went to various places. JPJ to renew my license. Tabung Haji and PNB to update my book and TGV for a movie. Tapi movie tak ada yang menarik. Just back home and rest.

I think I had been resting more than I needed. Sakit kepala pula. Feeling empty. And upset.